my situation is weird, i dont know which category to put this under, but i guess i am heart broken...
ive been miserable for the past few weeks because of this...
starting from the beginning, i came to college, this girl was in all my classes, and in the beginning of the semester she didnt really talk to me much except for saying hello. But then she came after me one day and we started talking more and more. But i knew she had a bf and i was trying to keep my distance and i was confused on why is she doing this. But i thought might as well just go with it... she was just majorly flirting with me, and text me all the time. But i just kinda shrugged her flirtations off. but one night she got drunk and decided to call me and tell me that she liked me but im just ignoring her, and maybe we should just be friends. I dont know why but i said noo dont do that i do like you, i guess i was just starting to have faint feelings for her...
then after that we just grew closer and closer, and we started hanging out everyday, and grew attached. she stayed over a few times and we kissed me and w/e. then she told me about her bf one day, and i said i knew. she said her relationship isnt going good and they've been growing apart for like 4 month and her bf said he would try to fix things but nothing actually changed. So i encouraged her that maybe she shouldnt be with him...and she broke up with him like a week later, she was sad but also said she needs alot of time. and after they broke up we remained as close as before...then a few weeks later, she suddenly stopped calling me and texting me, and i called her and she wouldnt pick up anymore. i asked her in person what was going on, she just said she was hanging out with her ex, and that they still talk and hang out occasionally.
then another week past by and we had another talk, she said we should stop hooking up and should just be friends...and told me that she doesnt want to be in a relationship with anyone right now, but then i asked her if she was thinking about getting back with her ex and she said "yes im thinking about it."she also said she didnt want to lose me in her life... and after that she stopped hanging out with me and acted like we were JUST friends...
she wouldnt flirt with me anymore. And im just missing everything that happened and i miss her because i really really like her. But i am just so hurt because i feel like i've been used, and was just a rebound guy that stayed in the picture a little longer than usual. I really want her, and people say i should just give her time...but we stopped hanging out so im assuming shes going to hang out with her ex alott, especially im going back home pretty far away soon, and its the month vacation coming up and im going to be away and her ex lives so close to her...so idk whats going to happen.
I really want to tell her how im hurt from this before i leave...but i dont want to just suddenly stop talking to her and be a baby about it, but some ppl say thats the only way it'll make her "realize." i mean i also want to ask her to put deep thoughts into whatever decisions shes going to make over this long break, but idk if i should say that. because i do not believe that people can change...i think her ex suddenly started to hang out alot with her again was because she broke up with him. but i think if they do get back together, he'll prob go back to the way he was and going to grow apart again...
so what should i do now? im miserable over this...and its finals week. i want to give up but i know i wont let myself...should i call her over the break at all? or talk to her at all over the one month break? please help me out and give any comments on this, thank you very much for taking your time to read my story and helping me out.