OK. Will try to be concise. I've never felt like this, and it is based on one meetings and only seeing her in the same sports activity since. Every time her prescence is there everything stops for me. Our first conversation is lodged in my head and I can't think of other girls, they are all so mundane in comparison. I've been around for over thirty years and never felt this way, even though I could go out and probably find someone to take home/stay in touch with, it'd mean nothing.
I'm getting the things that people describe in love-songs make me think of her, want to protect her, think of a future together etc, not wanting to be apart and concern for what happens to her. Can't help this reaction. She has this mysterious way that is haunting me. She's the same age as me and maybe quite aloof, ambition focused with her sports etc. It does interest me that women so near their biological clock ticking can be so aloof generally, one woman I know says this is defensiveness because she is like it. But anyway she doesn;t seem like the relationship type girl, more on freinds and her ambitions. Some might say it's odd to go ona first conversation but what do you do if someone seems precious and makes you feel things you haven't? I want to know what her psyche might be. She's abroad and working here. I've actually started to hope she doesn;t go home quite badly. I get this electricity about her. I know it sounds more like young love but I never had that. This is what makes me think there may be something special between us. Problem is she goes there with training buddies, training and is focused. It's very hard to re-establish the contact again. I've had some freindly signs one time and a look that was serious another, don't know whether that was desire or telling me to not look, hard to tell. I saw her smile while I looked at her in the poll one time.
She really has something on me that seems to sustain. How do I move it on, or even maybe-do something romantic or that shows how much our meeting meant to me?