I'm currently living in a house of 6 with a girl I really really like. We got together about a month and a half ago while quite drunk. We then slept together a few times since (drunk and sober) and would kiss basically every day. One of these nights I told her I liked her and wanted a relationship and she said she wasn't sure as she was scared of the awkwardness that would follow a potential break-up and that the housemates would act differently around us if they knew we were a couple. But she also said that she wouldn't find it easy going back to being just friends and that she would wanna go out with me if we didn't live together.
Since she told me that, it all came out that we'd been together (apparently the housemates had known for ages and we thought we had been all stealthy about it). The night it came out we slept together again (sober).
Anyway we're at uni so we then went off for xmas break. I asked her if she wanted to come to London to stay with me for a couple of days. She made up some rubbish excuse about having so much work and going away for a while; she clearly could have come if she wanted to, especially as I know she found time to go out with her home friends quite a lot. Over the holidays we didn't speak much; only on 3 separate days.
Anyway she got back yesterday and we went to the pub with some friends. She got quite touchy-feely at the pub and I didn't respond much. She got a bit drunk and said something silly which I laughed at. I was only joking around but she got quite offended and called me a "pr*ck" etc and got a bit aggressive. Anyway when we got back, I went to her room to sort it out as she had sobered up and she said that she was joking around too and that I was making her out to be a "bunny boiler". I asked if she wanted me to stay that night and she said "probably best not to".
Basically it feels to me like we've broken up even though we've never properly been together. I love her a lot and really feel like i've been strung along by her. Now I just feel like going out and bringing home the first girl I see as I basically want her to feel jealous (I know this isn't nice but it really pains me to see how she seems to be fine with nothing more happening while I'm feeling so depressed). It doesn't help that I've got important exams coming up and there's now 6 more months of living together. I should also point out that we were friends for 2 years or so before we got together.
I really needed to get that off my chest. Please give me your opinions.