Hello everyone, I've joined this forum in hope to get some good advice from users who may have been in the same situation as me or something similar. Anyways I'll start from the top.
I'm a 21 year old male currently in a relationship with a 19 year old female. It will be three years thus August.
since the start of our relationship she hasn't been in one single job and I feel like I've carried the relationship single handed throughout our time together. I've paid fir literally everything and sorted everything including homes, pets and holidays. We have been on.and off arguing and bickering over stupid things for a while now. She drinks a lot and has no drive or ambition to do anything.. I even walk our dogs alone. She sometimes says that I control her ? She has a good friend relationship with my sister and they enjoy drinking together as often as possible which ticks me off a bit because I get little help with everything yet she wants to enjoy luxuries?? We recently went to Egypt for s week together and one night after she drank a little too much I got a complete ear full, about how much of a control freak I am and how she thinks she's with me because it's the easier option? It made my heart sink, I literally felt sick and disgusted to think that she actually thinks I'm that much if a bad person..
When I look at her she seems unhappy, when we go for a cigarette we hardly speak, things are just so aawkward though it seems easier to just try and carry on as normal.
Now I find myself having thoughts of not being with her anymore, although it hurts too much to think about what, how and when to explain how I feel.. I do love her a lot and I know she loves me..
We have two dogs which I adore very much, I don't want to lose them but at the same time if we did split the dogs would always carry memories of when Me and her were in a relationship..
Might sound silly that it's only been 2 and a bit years but I just genuinely don't know what to do
Any help or advice is more than appreciated.
thanks for reading