I'm confused about how I feel about a girl. First for a little background information, I've always been good at letting people go. I've known girls that I've REALLY liked who I either couldn't be with for one reason or another (they were already taken, didn't like me back, or a friend liked them) or I was with for a while in one form or another and we just stopped seeing each other. Every time I was fine after a few days to a week and completely over it. I've even had to tell one of my parents face to face that I didn't want to live with them any more (custody dispute). Of course I was sad, but after a short period of time I was back on my feet and feeling fine.
Then I met a girl (mentioned earlier), and we kissed and made out a couple times. We also usually talked to each other at least once a day, and she was one of the few girls that I just genuinely enjoyed talking to on the phone (I'm usually pretty short on the phone) and concerned about how her day went. There was also all kinds of complicated stuff going on at the same time, which I've always completed avoided, but this time I just didn't care. Sometimes I wondered how I felt about her, if I just really liked her a lot or if it was something more, and I would always just tell myself that I wasn't sure yet and that I couldn't tell from just a few months. About a month ago she finally said that we couldn't see each other any more (reason and situation mentioned earlier).
I have a couple classes with her so I still see her once or twice a week, but we've just said hi and that's it, just like nothing ever happened. I haven't hung out with her or anything for a month now, and still nothing has changed. I still think about her all the time, I'm still sad whenever I think about it, and I still feel just as strongly for her as I did before.
When I talked with her, it would always make me feel better and kind of relaxed. When I held her or we kissed I felt entirely content and complete, and anything else that was on my mind just went away and I was only thinking about her. I've never felt like that when I was with other girls, and this is the first time I've had any kind of trouble letting go.
So my question is, was this love I was feeling or just something else?
-Crispy