Hello. I am in serious need of help. My girlfriend and I have been dating for over a year, and our entire relationship I have struggled with her past.
In her past, she used to smoke pot. This was for only about 2 years or up until we met. When we started dating she stopped completely and hasn't done it since. In the beginning I use to fear of her using behind my back, but since then I have forgot that worry, now I am at a point that I find much worst.
I hate her past. I hate it, I despise it, and yet I love her. So everytime I think about it it hurts me inside. I have no reason for hating it, I just do. It just evokes and emotion in me that makes me sick and sad and angry. I feel all this when I think about it.
How is it I can forget it? Or get over it? In a world with drugs all in the media its hard to not be reminded of all she did in the past. And its hard to not think of it and let it hurt me that hard.
I love her. And I want to make things work. But I can't feel love when I look at her in the past. I've tried for over a year to see her now. She her as who she is and not who she was.
But how do I get over it when simply looking at the ground and seeing a cigarette butt sparks a huge flame in my mind of hurt?
Please. Any advice.