I'm back again. Last month I posted about feeling like I'm competing with my boy's friends.
I guess I need a lot of affirmation or something, because sometimes I feel like I'm taken for granted.
I feel like I spend equal amount of time with him as his friend Meghan does. The bitch pisses me off. They are really close friends and well, they've known each other for a while now (a year). I guess she's alright because I get the impression that he asks her for advice about our relationship from time to time.
What pisses me off the most is that we rarely go out. He went to a movie with his friend Meghan last night and I think to myself: Hmmmm WE have never gone to movies together. We just hang out at his place all the time. I'm sick of that. In the two months we've been dating, he's never actually asked me out on a "date". I have a major problem with not saying what I want, so I'm really going to make an effort to bring this up. My guy is just so damn ignorant and he can't tell that when I'm silent, I'm usually ****ing pissed about something.
Another thing that makes me feel like I'm taken for granted is that he never DOES anything for me. I love cooking and baking so I bring him cookies and stuff now and then, but it took my pushing him for 3 weeks to do some work on my computer that took TEN MINUTES. Also, he never comes to my house, it's always his. He's not very thoughtful either, because say if we're lining up together and he gets his food first, he won't stand around and wait for me as I would do with even the most distant of friends.
Yeah, he is ridiculously LAZY. I'm applying for medicine next year and he's changed his major TWICE (comp sci --> English --> cognitive systems) and he's working the most low-end job right now while I'm working hard to make connections with doctors and professors.
It's so frustrating - I don't see this working in the long term, but when we are alone I really enjoy his company and we have a lot of fun. But he never says that he loves me and so I'm beginning to doubt that he does.