But I can't ignore my feelings. He is the one I want to be with. I'm not sure what to do at this point.
Well, "we don't always get what we want but if we try sometime, we just might get what we need." ~ Mick Jagger.
My dear... you are clinging to a sand castle that's already on it's way out with the tide. It takes TWO people to want to be in a relationship not just one. You're "not sure what to do at this point?" Sure you're sure, you just don't want to accept what it is you need to do which is start your zero contact, do things to keep your mind off of him, consciously change your thoughts of him when they pop into your head, learn to effectively communicate through books and or classes so that you learn to get your point across without arguing. In other words you keep busy so that you speed along your journey to being indifferent to him.
First step is acceptance that it's over though. You're in denial that it is which will keep you mired in your current pain and withdrawl symtoms.
“The willingness to accept responsibility for one’s own life is the source from which self-respect springs.” ~Joan Didion