Growing up I always wanted a girlfriend but I was really shy and struggled to communicate with females so I never had a girlfriend during my school years or college years, when I turned 20 I finally had my first girlfriend and it was horrible lasted less than a week, before this girl I did get close to about 5 females but they all stop talking to me without even telling me why, this put me down and made me want a relationships less I went from wanted to speak to a female to not even caring. I now honestly do not care about love the word pisses me off, I cant understand why people want that other person to make them feel happy, I guess I'm fine on my own as I've grew up on my own parents never really cared so I've always been an loner, has anyone else felt this way? I just don't care about love no more one of the reasons why is because of how this generation is seems like there is a lack of respect and dignity, I'm not a confident guy so if I went out with someone and she had a reputation I would dump her because I wouldn't be able to handle that, so I guess my question is, is this common to go from wanted love to despising it? Has this happened to anyone before?