over and over I return to the board,
picking up pieces,
flipping positions,
forfeiting, ending, pretending not to
not begin again
and again and
again and though
lately i make less of the moves,
I do more of the waiting,
and less of the losing,
more of the saving, invisible chasing, silent invading,
faux-absent gaming;
I score when I
talk
less
but the cost is a board that is covered in trails of eraser precluding my paces
protecting my squares that are
3 by 3 by you by m3 and a block
stop
or was it a begin?
a signal to play
or a cue that it's ending?
I would quit but whenever I do
it just feels like I'm winning.