I played with a girl about 5 years . I never loved her but pretend to her. But she satisfied with so many things. After this period I really fall in love with someone else. I never told her about that . We had the minimum physical relationship..(Kiss).The same thing I did with my present gf. But my X is really crazy for me she tells that she lost everything . Now she knows about my current gf.. my current gf also left me...My x wants everything to be nice again but I dont want to pretend anymore. I really dont like her. But if I say so she wants to commit suicide. I am continuing contacting with her so that she does not commit suicide . But I cannot bear it anymore...I miss my real love..I dont want my x also to be unhappy...what do I do ?PLZ help....