Hello, so im kinda new at this and i know it might sound silly.. But i could really do with some advice right now..
So about 3 months ago, i met a girl online. And at first we were just chatting sometimes, but while we were chatting, there was also another guy talking to us at the same time, so it was always just normal convosations.
So, when me and the girl were alone, we starting exchanging pictures, and i thought she was stunning, and she said she liked me aswell. So we continued to talk and flirt these past months, and i really started to feel strongly to her, and she the same to me. Before i continue, i should probably say she lives very far away from me, she lives in nederlands and i live in england.
So we would often go on webcam ect (You know what i mean), and she says things about how she wants to come to england to meet me, and she can see a life with me, and i could see it too since we talk for hours and hours together without ever an awkward silence. So i was speaking to her yesterday, and she told me that she loves me. And since i think about her all the time, i knew i was pretty sure that i loved her too, so i told her that. We were both happy that night, and i playfully asked her if there is anything else she wanted to tell me, and she said no.
So she went to her brush her teeth, then came back and sat down (she is always on webcam with me), and said she needed to tell me something, so i asked her what. And she told me that she slept with that guy i mentioned earliar (The one that was talking with us)
So after that i felt really depressed, and was asking her when ect... And she said it was when she knew me, but not when we started flirting ect.. She said it's because they were both single and wanted to try it. Then she told me that she feels nothing for him, and it meant nothing, and started going on about how she loves me and only me, ofc she started to cry, asking if i still liked her and stuff..
The thing is, they still do talk to eacthother (she says in just a "friends" way), and the guy lives only an hour away from her.
Ofc i tried to be nice and say maybe you should be with him since our distance will be an issue, but she kept saying she dosen't feel nothing and wants me and saying she loves me so much.
I just don't know what to do.. I really want to look past this as i really do love her (I know this is weird, since we havent met in person yet) But it's just everytime i think about that guy being with her, the depression feeling comes back again.
I've had a few girlfriends in the past that i've known personally, but i've never felt this way about anyone before..
So could anyone possibly give me some advice on what i should do? Do i move on? or do i continue this "relationship" with her and trying to look past the whole sleeping with that guy thing..
Thanks in advance for reading my wall of text, and im waiting eagerly for a reply.. Thanks again