One year ago, I was in a really bad place emotionally. I met someone who seemed perfect (Guy A), but I convinced myself they couldn't be into me and started dating a guy who I kinda liked (Guy B). Guys A and B knew each other vaguely prior to me meeting guy A.
Guy B and I had a good time for a while. I know he was really into me, but I didn't really feel the same. I ended things a bit ago after I realized I was just hurting both of us by continuing the relationship.
I hadn't seen Guy A in about 7~8 months until about 2 nights ago when we wound up working together for a day. He said all of 3 words to me and wouldn't look at or talk to me the rest of the night. That's when I realized that maybe he really had feelings for me back then. I don't know. I asked later if I had done something that upset him but he said no, but didn't say anything further. The problem is, even when I was with Guy B, any time I listened to the music I love, it was always Guy A that would enter my mind. I always thought of it as a crush over a person who was way out of my league. At this point I just want him back in my life. Even if there are no feelings from him, his ignoring me on purpose hurts way more than thinking we were both busy and had drifted apart a bit. I don't know if there's a way to fix it, but even if there isn't, is there a way for me to clean my mind of him? And/or a way to keep from thinking of him when I listen to music?
Yours truly
Really-Good-at-Screwing-Stuff-Up