I started up this team for an online video game and we started looking for new people. One of my team mates said he found someone who might like to join. It was this girl whose name I don't feel comfortable revealing. At first we just started talking and playing the video game but then she started messaging me everyday when she got on. We started talking a lot and realized that we had a lot in common. We found out that were both seniors in high school, both 17 (shes actually only 3 days older than me) and we live about 4-5 hrs away from each other, both in the USA, and there are uncanny things we had in common i dont feel comfortable sharing. So slowly I began to fall for her, but because I know that as male gamers on the internet, we have a reputation to try to hit on every girl on the internet, and I didnt want to seem this way. I tried to preserve our friend ship but these feelings kept building inside of me. One night i stayed up late and just wrote some poetry, which Ive never done before. I wrote a poem about her but I kept it to myself. A couple days later i had a dream about her, and although it was very simple, her being in it was.... I can't even describe it. Then one night, I couldnt keep these feelings inside anymore, and I just blurted something out:
"im sorry, but ive been thinking, theres just something i need to get off my chest. im sorry if im being selfish but im dying inside right now. i really dont think this is appropriate to say but, theres just something. I dont want to ruin our friendship at all. i reaally dont, and i hope that doesnt happen. please dont leave any akward silences, but i have to tell you...over the past couple weeks we've been talking ive found that i dont just like you as a friend, im starting to like you as more than a friend, and i don't want to feel this way because i know we have a good thing going. but i just cant hold it back any longer. im sorry. im sorry."
i was scared at this point but then her next comment was "oh [my name].....I feel the same way." then we were talking about how we both felt this way and now were both scared. we dont know what to do now. this is so foreign to both of us, to be feeling this way. I need some advice, please help me. Thank you.