Hi people, I'm in a bit of a situation right now and don't know what to do. This is quite a long post and it would help if someone gave me some advice.

I have been with my boyfriend for over a year and its my longest relationship ever. We met when i was 19, i'm 20 now and he is in his early 30s. We met online and at first i was skeptical and scared because i had never had a propper relationship. He was my first at everything if you know what i mean. He lived away from me at the time but we would meet up atleast once a month sometimes staying together for 2 weeks and everything was great.

Now i am living with him and he has stopped kissing me randomly or hugging me or telling me i look nice. I looked on the computer one day to find a song i was playing a few days ago so looked on the history only to find porn and him googling naked girls on the same site we met on. It makes it worse i am pregnant. I know he would rather look at them than me. I feel ugly that he doesnt find me attractive anymore and it breaks my heart. I'vve spoken to him about it but he just gets defensive and angry at me.
A few weeks ago when i was at my friends house one of her friends (a male) asked for my number and said he was really into me and furthermore i have been complimented by men on how i look etc and i always reply 'i have a boyfriend' it makes it unfair somehow he keeps me at home as his 'girlfriend' yet doesnt want to touch me and fantasises about celebrities etc. I love him but the more this happens i just feel uglier and uglier and i want to be appreciated and loved.

I left him last month and stayed somewhere else and he texted me non stop wanting me back and i had around over 60 missed calls. Is he keeping me around because he doesnt want to be alone or are there other factors here?
He tells me he fancies me but im not so sure. Its painful to stay in this relationship.
I understand porn is normal but it kind of makes me feel uneasy when hes googling girls naked on the same website we met on.
I need someone to talk to about this. I am financially alone and have no family.

Thankyou for reading.