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    I don't know how I can possibly keep this up...

    ... I've been putting up a brave front.. I've been distracting myself as best I can... Doing things to keep myself distracted.. Gym, hanging with friends, taking up new hobbies, etc... I've been posting on here with regularity, but the truth is I miss her terribly.. I think about her all throughout the day, I struggle to fall asleep at night sometimes, and I spend the whole day fighting the urge to call her up or send her an e-mail saying how much I love and miss her. The only way I maintain the urge is by reminding myself that she's with someone and that i wasn't happy with the way things were.. But everyday it doesn't get better, it gets worse. Holding it back and keeping up with this NC is ravaging my insides and I feel like one day i'm about to crack and just give her that call or e-mail or whatever the case may be. How can I possibly keep it up?
    Be careful with your heart, because when someone seems too good to be true, they usually are.

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    Easier. Said Than. Done.
    Be careful with your heart, because when someone seems too good to be true, they usually are.

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    Imagine her with the new person and get upset about it. Remind yourself of the aspects of your relationship that made you unhappy.

    Pretend that she died and hold a little funeral service.

    Throw out any of her stuff in your possession, or donate it to charity. Or put it all in a box and ask a friend to hold on to it for you.

    Call up an escort, or at least get a massage with a "happy ending."

    Talk to your friends endlessly about your obsession with her, until they are clearly bored. Keep talking about it until finally you are bored, too.
    Good decisions come from experience. Experience comes from bad decisions.

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    Talking to friends is really good advice - it has helped me a lot...
    Try to pretend to be content and happy in public (that too, helped me a lot - sometimes I have even forgotten, that I am just pretending...)
    I hope you get better soon!

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    I'm right with you at this very spot dude, but when I think about it, I think that your probably still in love with the idea of her, how things used to be, or how things should be, but we ignore how things are, and how they really are. Do no forget that they are not the same person you fell in love with anymore, and trust is no longer there, there is a difference in loving SOMEONE and who you WANT them to be.
    I've been having these weird thoughts lately...Like....is any of this real or not?

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    Quote Originally Posted by mey View Post
    Talking to friends is really good advice - it has helped me a lot...
    Try to pretend to be content and happy in public (that too, helped me a lot - sometimes I have even forgotten, that I am just pretending...)
    I hope you get better soon!
    The problem is, with the friends that I can really talk to about serious issues, i've already exhausted that option that is being suggested here. I'm not one to usually pour my heart out to my friends but ever since this situation started (pretty much last year) I have been doing that consistently, and frankly they don't wanna hear it anymore and I don't blame them one bit. I know what it's like to have a downer friend who always seems to be unhappy about something...
    Be careful with your heart, because when someone seems too good to be true, they usually are.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Kyouhen View Post
    I'm right with you at this very spot dude, but when I think about it, I think that your probably still in love with the idea of her, how things used to be, or how things should be, but we ignore how things are, and how they really are. Do no forget that they are not the same person you fell in love with anymore, and trust is no longer there, there is a difference in loving SOMEONE and who you WANT them to be.
    I very much agree with this. I think you're spot on that i'm not really in love with her but who she used to be (or rather, who I thought she was).. Even though she hasn't been that person for a long time, my mind just idealizes her even knowing how wrong for me she was.. I am indeed in love with who I want her to be. Now you would think having this knowledge would make it easier to let go, but...
    Be careful with your heart, because when someone seems too good to be true, they usually are.

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    it actually makes it harder because now your attached to a person who your not truly in love with, so it's contradicting, days can be great when you forget them, then are terrible when you remember

    it's when you dont have that full closure and things are left in tattered ruins that everything falls apart

    but you will feel better in time because i have to as well
    I've been having these weird thoughts lately...Like....is any of this real or not?

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    Yes, that's exactly what it's been like. A roller coster. I've gone through some tremendous highs when I think about her and am proud of myself for walking away. Days that it feels great to be free from what was such a terrible situation for the past year and change. Then there are days where I just dwell on the memories. I wonder what she's doing and how she's been without me. And I feel depressed not having her in my life anymore. It literally changes by the day, even by the hour sometimes.
    Be careful with your heart, because when someone seems too good to be true, they usually are.

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    I've been on the same emotional roller coaster for a month and some weeks now... Everyday I feel a little better, but then I fall right back in to it and I'm right back at stage 1. The girl I dated for a year and a month is a different person now, and it's really depressing. The only thing we can really do is learn to let go of them... Detach ourselves. Realize they are no longer part of our lives, and simply accept it. One thing that's helped me is reading, I always read "A Man's Search for Meaning" by Viktor Frankl whenever I get really down in the dumps. It explains life on a whole different level, he was a psychologist during the holocaust and watched thousands of people die, he too was a prisoner.

    Everyday you start to fall back in to the memories of all those great times, realize they're not gone, you still have them, but it's not the present. If you live in the past for the rest of your life you are passing up TONS of opportunities. Of course you don't want to move on yet, but realize you eventually will have to if you ever plan on being happy again. Perhaps one day you will date your long lost love again, probably not though. Let life work itself out. You can't change anything, but your own attitude, so slap on a smile, even if it's fake.

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    Quote Originally Posted by soulsurvivor23 View Post
    The problem is, with the friends that I can really talk to about serious issues, i've already exhausted that option that is being suggested here. I'm not one to usually pour my heart out to my friends but ever since this situation started (pretty much last year) I have been doing that consistently, and frankly they don't wanna hear it anymore and I don't blame them one bit. I know what it's like to have a downer friend who always seems to be unhappy about something...
    Seriously man, I'm in the same boat as you. If you wanna talk sometime send me a private message with some way to get in touch with you (facebook...aim...myspace)

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    After a few days without my ex-gf my mind cleared a bit. And I realised I had to make one of two choices. She's gone and she's not coming back - that can't be changed. What can be changed, however, is you. You can either have a good life - enjoy yourself, revel in your new freedom and live it up, or, you can have a bad life - wallow in pity and grief for ages. Its upto you, but we all know that you'd rather have a good life. You just have to be strong enough to grab it at a dark time.

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    I believe you need to wallow a bit, there is a reason why you broke up and it's this pain and heart break that helps you learn from these experiences so you dont end up doing the same process over and over again.

    And sometimes it takes awhile
    I've been having these weird thoughts lately...Like....is any of this real or not?

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    Just another rough patch. You've talked to her recently and are going back and forth on wondering if shooting her down was a good move, even if it felt awesome at the time. It was a good decision and we all applaud your efforts. Keep reminding herself that no matter how much you want her to be your one, she CANNOT be the one for you right now. Besides having a boyfriend, she also doesn't have the proper skills, mentality or feelings for her to live up to your idolization.

    Getting somebody else is not an instant fix all, and it's not fair to the other person if you are unable to give them your 100 percent so I don't think it's a good idea. You will always be looking back until somebody else comes and sweeps you off your feet, which doesn't happen as often as you think. But learn to live life on your own and most importantly: learn to enjoy life on your own. When you do, your problems with her will be insignificant. You might even learn to understand and feel bad for her no matter how much you hate her. I'm on eight months without her and no prospects on the horizon, and if you accept certain facts and make the most of the days you have coming ahead, you will feel alright too.

    Summer is coming up, plan a trip/trips with your buddies and do something fun. Maybe something you haven't done before. That's what I'm doing and it gives you something to look forward to, instead of wallowing and looking back on what you do not have anymore.

    Are there some things you don't understand from your situation? I think you have it pretty mapped out and are able to understand things the best you possibly can. That has brought me enough peace with myself. I'm happy to help you need some insight..
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