We were together from December until May, but for the last two months of the relationship he wasnt happy. The reason being an incident which was my fault, no infedelity, after that he saw me as a different person, and I tried my hardest for weeks to convince otherwise, and said he would give me another chance. I took this as a chance to try to get him to love me again, but instead I smothered him, admittedly he has trouble sharing and communicating with me what he wants or how he feels as this is both of our first serious relationships, so we are still learning, but because of that I didn't notice what I was doing until he tried to break up with me a few days before we actually broke up. A few days to look back on what happened, and realise I had become dependent on him, I had become a loser and neglected my friends, hobbies and myself. I explained this all to him but he just wanted to give up, and so he broke it off.
We texted straight after in a civil, almost friendly, manner, he mentioned he loved me once and of course he would want that feeling again but doesn't see it happening. I may be wrong but I think it's because I'm not the person he fell in love with anymore, even I agree with him. So I picked my stuff up the day after, and explained that I wasn't as upset as I thought I was because I had realised I was too dependent on him, wanting someone there, not specifically him. I know so many people say never to be friends with an ex as it is too painful, but we are on the same page, knowing that we are both no longer in love but do miss the time that we were. So I asked him for time for me to find myself again but to not lose touch, and I'm already getting there within a few days, being happy with myself and with my friends again. I'm meeting with him this weekend, however I don't know whether that is a good idea because even though there's no love it may hinder our chances of missing each other and any prospect of a relationship. The problem is we only have six weeks left because it is his last year at uni, and I don't think that's enough time for the whole no contact rule, so my question is what the hell do I do?! I admit I'm not in love with him anymore but I still want to be with him, so maybe one day we can have that amazing relationship we once had.