Hi everyone, I hope I am posting in the correct forum, but I am at my wits end and desperate for someone to shed some light into female psyche to help me to understand what I am doing wrong if anything.
I have recently gotten close to a woman two years younger than I(I am 24), and she has been alluding to the idea(at times) that she wont be able to see me because I am "too perfect" and that I deserve better than her.
I have not told any of my friends about this because I am somewhat ashamed and I also don't want to come off as seeming like I have a large ego- I do not think I am perfect by any means.
Part of me would feel as though this may be an excuse that she is giving me because she is just not interested, however in the past few years this same situation has happened with 4 different girls(from all different walks of life) as were getting close and I was interested in dating them. In each case we were getting close to each other, then they would become distant with me, tell me that they aren't good enough, and stop talking to me. This hurt me very bad for one because I want to be with the girl, and she doesn't want to see me, and second because the reason they gave me basically was that they did not think highly of themselves...when I think they are incredible.
Each time it hurt very badly, like I said before I thought it was an excuse...but since it has happened so many times I feel like they may actually believe this, and it kills me inside. The other reason I believe it may be true(that they believe me to be too good) is that again, with each of them, after about 3-5 months passed(of little or no contact), they contacted me and suddenly wanted to be with me...but the damage was done and I could not do it .
I am a 24 year old graduate student, I am a nice person, I help people, I respect women, and I am at least somewhat good looking...but I am nowhere near perfect.
Please help me understand what she is thinking, could she(or the other girls for that matter) really believe this about me? If so, why is it something that would prevent a relationship? Should I try to make a conscious effort to make sure people don't develop this kind of impression about me?
I have gotten to know this girl pretty well and I am really scared that the same thing is going to happen, and I don't want it to because I really, really, really care about her.
Forgive me for my poor sentence structure and everything, but it is 4am where I am and I have been pacing around my apartment, at times bawling like a child, because I want this girl...and I don't know what to do.
Thank you in advance for any help.