Hi
I live in the UK my "Gf" lives in the Usa..we have been in a relationship for 2 years..She visited here last year,i spent Xmas and New Year with her and only flew back a couple of days ago..A few days before i was due to fly back we had a chat and she decided she wanted to end our relationship..
The reason is that it has to end because i want to move their with her and get married which she wanted to do..the problem is that i am now out of work and she feels that because of the cost of visas and waiting 6 months for my green card i will not be able to work and she could not be able(and i dont expect her) to support me...I think i did the wrong thing the other day,i said give me a month to find a job,if not then if she wants to go her seperate way maybe that is what should happen..so now ive put more pressure on myself!
Now this is what im absolutetly stumped about..its not that she does not love me..She tells me that every day still on the phone ,we speak for and hour a day or so..we still do the same things,she sends me emails saying "Hi Baby" I Love you etc etc..She just said today that she "Really loves me so much" and its for real you can tell when your with someone so long if they mean it! I said as long as you love me i will never give up..she said i will always love you..Well what does that tell me ?What do i do,i know she doesnt want to give up.i do know that she honestly does love me..its a mind game to me at the monent.I do feel so down,i am devastated that i may lose her!I am a mature guy whos never ever thought suicidal thoughts ever before,but i think about it now..i could not live without this woman in my life..
my first post,hope its in the right place and thanks to any replies