I've just got dumped by my EX now of 8 yrs relationship. We lived together for 6 yrs. It has been a little more than four months now since the official break-up. We still seeing each other on and off for about 3 months after that (I know it's bad idea). I've returned the keys to her last Saturday. I found it so hard to let her go. Something is keeping on telling me to do not give up on her and that we'll be together again. I've been through a very painful stage of my life. This is so much harder than I expected. I don't hate her. Matter of fact, I blamed myself for holding on to her for so long and not marrying her. However, I found it so hard for not really know the truth why we broke up. She said that "I don't feel the love...Lets just be friend". I just can't believe that it was recently we still talking about having kids and settling down... Now, it's totally the opposite. Why the story switched instantly. I've also noticed that she mentioned about one guy quite often on her conversation. I'm totally trusted her for all these years. But I think our broke up gotta do with that person. I am not the type of person to go sneak around and find out or stalking her. I won't do that. I just want the truth so my heart can let go easier.
I have returned the keys to her house that I am basically remodel everything there... I just found the courage to delete her phone number off and also removed her email address. What should I do next... It's so heart broken knowing I won't be able to be with her now and the future. Why the heck is it so so hard to let go...