So, my ex's birthday is tomorrow. I'm debating whether I should break NC and wish her a happy birthday. I don't have her number anymore so I would have to send her an email. I have this strong feeling that if I don't wish her a happy birthday, she'll get even more pissed at me, hate me more (which, as some of you know, makes no sense considering I did nothing wrong), and send me a mean text asking why I didn't wish her a good day. I really do hope she has a good day tomorrow but... I don't know. It kind of makes my stomach churn at the thought of talking to her because I still have feelings for her. Ugh, it's already been over two months since she left and I'm still not over her so I hope this bipolar theory I have is to blame for my head not being able to see things in a better light.