So, am I?
As some of you probably know, I've mentioned a girl I like in my college. Now its the second year and I still do. there was some obvious sparks at the beginning of the first year, I had some wonderful chances of getting to know her, but I did nothing. Actually when i first saw her I was thinking about introducing myself but then I aknowledged myself that there already is one other girl with whom I have gotten further, even though she didn't like me that much. I just thought it wouldn't be right.
But through the year there was eye connection, I got to talk to her a couple of times. Actually I got like many hours... but I just didn't use them...
The second girl screwed me over and I had enough. Besides I didn't want her to give impression like she were some backup... So I eventually gave up all.
Today in a lecture she sat almost beside me (because her friends were there), there was one empty seat between. I was my face down in my sketchbook and when I raised my head, she was already there. Felt it would be odd to say hi then... So I just sat there like a creep, trying to get a small glimpse of her. Giving of that cold vibe (which quite sadly I have right now...)
****.
Thats all.