Hi!
So I have known this girl for about 7 years now. We are good friends, and I love hanging out with her. She is 20, and Iīm turning 21 soon. The first time we met/got to know each other, I fell in love with her. At that time I was 13 or 14 years old, not knowing much about love and all.
The thing is, there is a lot she does not know about my feelings about her, and thereīs so much that I really want to tell her, but Iīm afraid because I donīt know how it might end up. I guess it all comes down to the fact that I donīt want to let this go just because I didnīt have the courage to talk to her about it. I told her once, that I had fell in love with her before, but did not mention that I kind of still had some thoughts left.
This girl is hard to understand, and it seems like she wants people to understand her without her saying what she really thinks.
For instance, once I travelled about 400 km on the 17. of may which is our countryīs national holiday. I spent 7-8 hours alone in a car, wanting to see her one evening/night, and then driving home again the day after (with her in the car, as she lives in the same area as me). When I talked about how weird and crazy it was that I had driven all that way, just to be where she was, she responded: "maybe itīs best not to think about it".
?? Is this a clear and obvious hint I should take??
I really want advice for what to do. I have so many things I want to tell her, just to get it out of my system and get to know if she feels something or has ever felt something. If we end up as just friends after that, I think I will be ok with that, but itīs about getting it out there, and giving it a chance.
Thanks for helping me, please ask questions about my "situation".