Hi everyone,
I need some kind of insight or advice on this matter. I hurted my bf 5 weeks ago, cause I lied to him. Yeah, I ****ed up. It was a silly lie, but in the situation it just seemed easier to lie about it (still stupid and I regret so much!) Well, it caused alot of anger from him. He said he couldn't be with a liar, and then we discussed a bit and said he had to cool down and needs some space. Besides our disagreement, he is battling with a whole lot of personal issues. I am not so much into it, but he does see a therapist often. I just know he is very insecure and suffers from mood changes alot, and easily becomes angry. I don't want to assume, but there's definitely something wrong with him that has nothing to do with me. But I guess our disagreement kinda triggered him to shut down and hide himself from me. He was suddenly very upset with everyone, and nothing matters to him at the moment. He just want to be alone and deal with his problems alone! He said 4 weeks ago in a text that he'll call me when he feel less pain and anger. I respected his choice, cause I love him and said I am here for him anytime he is ready to talk about it, so we can solve it one way or the other. However, I haven't heard a sound from him for a month now. I've have been sending him messages now and then telling him I miss him, that I hope he feels better soon, that I am here for him anytime. Though I don't get any response. It hurts alot, and I am left confused and empty not knowing the next move. I really want to maintain some sort of relationship with him, cause I don't want to lose him. I feel he is really punishing me too for what I did. It's tough, but I am more worried about the outcome of it.
How much space is enough? I am trying to be patient, and I am willing to wait for him, since he is the one I wanna spend my life with. But won't ignoring the one you are suppose to love make someone start to drift away? Or maybe not, if the feelings are strong enough? I don't know. For me I know I cannot go on without knowing where exactly we are standing and how we can deal with it, cause the problems are still unsolved.
This is LDR, which also make things slightly more difficult. I guess he fearing commitment now that I hurted him. But what can I do to make him feel good about me again? Should I just leave him until he returns? Continue with my texts now and then, or something else?
I don't need to hear that I should move on. If I could just move on easily like that, I wouldn't be posting this. And no, he has not found another woman either. He just isolated himself from everyone and everything. Everything seems to be a disturbance in his life right now. He told me he doesn't give a f*ck about work, money and women at the moment. I really don't know what to think or do. Maybe someone has experienced the same? Or maybe knows why it has to take this long?
Thanks