I met a girl at varsity and for some strange reason i fell in love with her from the first night i met her. (strange, cause in 22 years of being on planet earth, i have never fallen this hard for a girl). She however, still had some issues with her ex and i supose issues with dating in general and made it clear from the begining that she was looking for a good 'friend' (how awful that word sounds ) and wasn't interested in a relationship with anyone at that stage. At the same time she was also one of those girls who had a bit of a reputation... Soon however things started getting a bit weird, she said and did things that made me think she wanted more, but other times she made it perfectly clear she only wanted friendship. We even made out twice... (which is a lot if you are ONLY friends). She new perfectly well how I felt about her. We spent so much time with eachother that even her friends thought we were going out. We also had quite a few fights, mostly about her and other guys. None of my friends liked her, mostly due to her 'reputation', but (and I suppose most people will only laugh and say i feel this way because i'm in love with the girl) there's a difference between judging a person on what other say about her, and actually spending every single day with her and getting to know the real her. I suppose thats why I could never move on(I tried 4 times. :lol:) and partly because I hoped she would admit to liking me as more than a friend. ( I asked her and she said that she cared about me a lot, which i supose was probably obvious from some of her actions)
Now I'm leaving varsity and she's staying for another year. Last night I spoke to her on the phone and for the first time we were totally honest with eachother and I explained why certain things bothered me in the past and she apoligized for the things she had done in the past and said she cared a lot about me and was afraid if she was 100% honest with me in the past I would have ended our friendship. (For example: she didn't tell me she was in love with another guy [until after I found out], cause she knew I would have ended the friendship, which i would have done :lol: )
How can I get over this girl? I don't want to end any ties between us, because I know our friendship is important to her and because I realy care about her. If she starts going out with some guy next year, I'm not going to hang around and pretend to be happy for her and still keep on phoning her and answering her phone calls and messages. Even though I know she cares about me, she still has some issues and I know a relationship between us would never work. but at the same time there's this little hopeful voice at the back of my head which keeps on saying: "Wait until she's a bit older and decides what/who she wants in life and maybe then you'll be together". I want to remain in contact with her incase somewhere down the line our paths cross again and things are different. I know this isn't the right thing to do.
how can i forget about her or get over my feellings for her?