Hello everyone.
I thought I could manage this on my own but I can't and since I feel that I need help I'm posting my heartache into this forum. (Sounds easier than it was coz I cried like never before in my life and I still do every night...)
Two weeks ago my girlfriend told me over the phone that she loved me less than she used to. It was a long-distance relationship but it was as real as a "normal" one can possibly get. Then a month after my last stay in her country she told me that although she still loved me that she wasnt in love with me anymore or she got bored with me.
She emphasized that it had nothing to do with me, that it wasnt because of something Ive done or not done or because she didnt see any future for our relationship (I'll have to go to the army next year for 8 months and after that I'd still have to get the residence permit of her country, a place to stay and to work etc.) but simply because her romantic interest in me has decreased with time. And that's what hurt and scares me the most.
I admit she is very young. I am young too but I guess in this age category the difference counts even more. What I mean is, it doesnt matter if the wife of a 70-year-old is 66. But if you are 18 the difference does matter the younger she is.
I love her. More than anything else in the wolrd. I would do anything for her. She is the one I want to share the rest of my life with. I made the mistake of letting her know this and Im sure that this scared her off a bit but this cant be the reason why she loved me less all of a sudden. In my despair I talked with her mum about this (I'm on very good terms with her) and she too said that her daughter was too young for such an intense relationship (let alone a long-distance one...)
Anyway it happened. I told her that I'd respect her feelings and I'd let her go. But I want her back some time. I'm willing to wait for her. For her to be ready for a that kind of love, for her to see new faces, to meet new people, to make happy memories, to experience the feeling of being in love many, many times, to go and have fun partying & clubbing & drinking & dancing & flirting and do all the things a girl her age likes to do, if that makes her happy.
I'm willing to wait for her for as long as it takes because I love her and I know there is no place for anyone else in my heart. The thing is until that time she might "seriously" fall in love with someone else or she might never fall in love with me again at all. I know that these are all things noone can know for sure and I myself do not understand why Im posting this if I am willing to wait regardless of conditions. All I know for sure is that she really loved me and that she still wants me as a friend.
I love her and I want her back. Is there any hope for me? If there is how should I act until I am "allowed" to approach her romantically again? Please help me, I love her so much.