have been friends with this guy for 4 years. We were always very friendly and got along great. This year, we got much closer, and we would hang out together all the time. About a month ago, when we were saying good night, he kissed me. I was in shock, and didn't know how to react. I did respond to the kiss though. He sent me a email and I told him I was sorry I broke the kiss so soon because it was my first (I'm 21 btw and never had a bf). A day later when i saw him, he was acting a bit distant. The next week he didnt even say good bye and went off with this girl. I was pissed off the whole week. These past few days I returned to my old self and wanted to at least be friends again. And it's been like that till today. We don't even talk like we used to.I really do care a lot about him. He's leaving school soon I think I wont see him for a long time. I just wish I understood what's going on in his mind.