Killerbabe very upset. Killerbabe very cynical and sad right now.
I like it in Denver so much that it's pretty tough being back home. My family is driving me crazy. Before I lived on my own (well, with my boyfriend) I didn't seem to notice all the conflicts between my mom and dad and my older sister... But now that I'm so used to peaceful surroundings and people that just want to chill (yes, Colorado is a very laid-back state) their fights really stress me out and I feel like I'm on a battlefield. Not like they all hate each other but yes, they're pretty much sick of each other I guess.
Then there's another issue. I never really had any curfews or anything, I mean if I really wanted to do something I'd find the right strings to pull. But now that I'm used to storming out of the house at 2 am, just because I feel like hanging out, it feels like I'm somehow restricted. I guess I got pretty lucky that my parents didn't mind sending me off that far away. They don't even mind that I live with my boyfriend at 19.
Most of my friends back here live with their parents and can't even imagine how my parents let me go on my own. I guess it's a Russian thing. You see thirty-year old "kids" living with their parents (sometimes even if married). Sure it's a problem with getting apartments because they're really costly and everything, but that's truly tragic. I'm used to hanging out with couples like Mike and I who live together and their parents couldn't care less living in some other state and society doesn't consider it inappropriate.
Back here I am bombarded by intimidating and oh-so-annoying questions like "So when are you guys getting married?" WE'RE NOT! Why do we have to get married?! Why does everyone make me feel guilty for living with a guy I love under one roof without a stamp in my passport?! My parents' friends look at me with disbelief and friends' parents nod with disapprovment...
But Mike's family (in Denver) doesn't seem to mind at all, they're very nice to me and think that I'm a great girl.
Or do they think that I'm a dirty little girl too because I moved in with my boyfriend too?..