Hi, I am in a difficult situation. After a relationship that lasted 3,5 years, I broke up with my boyfriend ( who is 20 years older than me, please don`t judge). After we broke up we continued being friends, we hang out together, we were friends with benefits. He still loves me very much, but I care about him and nothing more. The problem is that I have problems at home, I can`t handle it anymore, my little brother who is 14 started smoking, he refuses to study, he creates a very very negative atmosphere in the family and I can`t take it anymore, I am a nerve-wrack, I can`t concentrate, I am always depressed, it`s not a good environment in my house, I really can`t explain how affected I am.
So, here`s the deal. I was complaining about this to my ex and I said very often to him that after finishing the university, I would like to leave home and move alone in a studio with rent. He offered to move in with me, because he feels sorry about my situation and that I am very unhappy. He offered to pay the rent until I find a job, and I will cook for him etc. He said he doesn`t want to be my boyfriend again, that he understands I don`t love him anymore, he just wants to get me out of this mess at my house. The problem is I would like to move in with him so that I could have some peace and quiet, but I am not attracted that much to him, I know that we will have sex when staying together, it`s inevitable. But for example If I find a guy that I am attracted to, I won`t know what to do, because he`ll eventually find out. Althouh, this is highly improbable, because I have been trying to find someone this year and I can`t seem to see any interesting guy, I`m doomed
What do you think I should do ? Should I move in with him so that I could stop being so depressed even though I am not attracted to him anymore ? I am so confused, I really really need this change, because otherwise, I will kill myself if I stay another year with my family please help