Hey, I'm not sure if this is in the right forum, but it made sense to me to put it in here.
Anyway, I am 19 years old. I have been calm and cool-headed up until about a month ago. From that month until now, I've gotten really mad at some things. For example:
I hate school. All we do in classes is waste time, and that's what we did every year before this. It's never productive.
I hate time. I hate being limited to do something in a certain amount of time, when that task normally amounts to nothing.
I've been told, when I was younger, to wait until I actually started doing things with my life. That time is now, and there's nothing I want to do. Loads of things seem pointless and/or wastes of time.
I've been told to be more productive to make things more involving or meaningful. I've done things that SHOULD have and do make me happy, but the biggest problematic thing is school. I've already ranted about school, though, so I won't take up more of your time with school-talk.
I hate not being able to be creative. In school, I can't do the music stuff or other artistic stuff I've dreamed of doing since I was 12.
Now, I've found some ways to deal with anger. I never get mad around other people because they're just like me. Whenever I'm alone and I'm enraged, I do any music stuff (drum, sing, anything else), but that's not always an option. I can't always whip out drumsticks and start tapping away on anything whenever I'm mad in school/public.
Anyway, I have my first girlfriend, dreams of doing fun things, and I spend every free moment I have doing things I consider fun. When that time is up, I feel productive, but I get mad at not being able to have fun.
In the end, I just need a solution or a way to deal with bottled-up anger. I don't know if I provided enough information to give anyone some sort of idea of my situation, since I kind of started ranting and venting about things I dislike, but I hope I could give some sort of background on my current situation. Any thoughts?
Also, thanks in advance.