Cut us some slack! It's Saturday, and the boards are always slow on the weekend.
I think you are artificially inflating your feelings for your ex because you are unhappy with your current situation. If you caused this guy pain when you broke off with him before, I think you should leave him alone. No notes, no nothing. To do otherwise is pretty selfish, in my opinion, because it demonstrates you care more about YOUR desire to dump this in his lap, and less about how HE might care to hear it.
You can't go home again...
Relax... I'll need some information first. Just the basic facts - can you show me where it hurts?