missing my soul mate.

[kayburry]

soo, about 7 months with the help of my mom, (im only 19) i left my boyfriend... to adventure on my own my mom explained to me that im still young and got in such a serious relationship too young(3 years) and i havent experienced youth. Sounded like it was very true so packed my things pretty much and didnt reallly give my boyfriend much of a chance i just left him. we still talk all the time, he has a girlfriend to cover up his true feelings and to hide the pain i have cause him. I have tried to move on and such, but nothing compares to him at all. I cover up my feelings with partying (which i never used to do before)... now i sent him a bday present and he got it today.. i said i would like him to call me later.. he said i cant call you tonight hunny. having thinking night.. if i need you ill give you a shout ..thank u for the present. its hard tryen to keep you out of my life when i want u back but i dont want to feel this hurt ever again with you so i fu**ked both ways..
I know we shared a really special relationship together, and i feel that i didnt realise what i had until it was gone. Do you think he will ever trust me again, enough that we will be together happily.. or is it to late to salvage?

[Alvy]

You're 19, not 91. Every 19 year old thinks their relationship is special when in reality, it's not that big a deal. You'll move on, he'll move on. Spend some time on your own instead of getting into a relationship. Your mum's right. There's a good chance she's been in your position before. Go on a holiday with friends, read or write. Do something that's safe and fun. At our age, we can afford to be a bit selfish. No point wasting that by trying to please another person. You'll forget about him as you occupy yourself with more productive things. I hear hiking's good. Do that instead of mindless partying.

[Mrvhappy]

Hi,

The 1st yr apart is the hardest @ yr age. If you want to get over him you have to cut all contact otherwise the pain will always come flooding back.

When you are ready I suggest that you try some speed dating/dating other guys then you will really know if yr ex is "the one".

Recently my 1st love from back then tracked me down. I thought I was over her but the feelings are still there for both of us!!...ohh dear complications

Good Luck