Long story cut short, I was introduced to my roommate's boyfriend two years back. We had so much in common that we hit it off immediately and I soon became his best friend and we became very attached to each other. During this time my roommate (his then girlfriend) did not quite get along with me for other reasons that had nothing to do with him. They both were having big problems in their relationship despite dating for 5 years and I was often his shoulder to cry on about how unhappy he was with her because she did not give him any time or attention.
Finally this new year he broke up with her. After that we became much closer and started developing feelings for each other which we admitted to each other as well. This is where things get twisted because I too have a boyfriend since three years and am quite happy with him, but I cannot deny that I am terribly attracted to my best friend. He claims to be very attracted to me too but says he is scared it will destroy our intimate friendship. So we decided to ignore this attraction and remain best friends like before.
But since 2 weeks his ex-girlfriend that he broke up with has been giving him a lot of attention and says she wants to get back with him again. While my friend has said he wants a break from their relationship for at least 6 months they speak to each other everyday now as friends and I am extremely jealous because he is trying to work things out with his ex-girlfriend.We speak for like 3-4 hours a day, but it makes me feel worse because I am not dating him and he might work things out with his ex.
I am very confused as to what I should do now because I know I really like him although I have a boyfriend who is unbelievably sweet to me. I cannot deal with my best friend getting back together with his ex-girlfriend despite the two of us vocally admitting that we have very strong feelings for each other and cannot go a day without speaking.
HELP..!