Ibby, instead of taking such rediculous self-destructing advice as noted above from other people, perhaps try something productive? This break-up (if I assume correctly) will be worth something only when you choose to learn from it. Drinking your problems away while indulging in voyeuristic midget sex is not the answer. You are where you are now for a reason. Poor communication with your lover? Poor self-image? Lack of sensitivity? Now is the time for you to understand yourself, who you are, what you have become and most importantly what kind of person you want to be in the future. You are not a monster. You are human like everyone else on this planet. We've all made mistakes and will continue to do so until the end.
Don't be that bum on the street whose only warmth comes from a brown paper bag. You have atleast two options at this point in your life: (1) Learn from the now defunct relationship and better yourself for the next one that you will have in the future, (2) bury the burden within yourself. Cover it with the meaningless sexual relationships that other's have recommended; ultimately increasing your feelings of worthlessness and self-destruction.
In the end, it is all about you. Your choices. Your decisions. Your life. No one or anything is going to fix your life except yourself.
Stay strong and remember, although you cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel, it surely does exist. Thousands of years have existed before us. Your problem has arisen before and has been solved.
Peace my brother.
Originally Posted by
ibby
The new year is almost here, and all I have to show for it is a broken heart and bad breath. I want to rant and rave and bitch slap everyone I meet. I want lesbians and midgets to worship me and to tell me how sexy I am. I want my ex-girlfriend to call me and tell me how much she hates me and wishes that I would just die. I want another pack of smokes and another bottle of some kind of alcohol so that I can drown my sorrows. I want people to randomly kick me in the balls then spit in my face, then ask if I'm alright.I want so much but I never get what I want. Pointless.
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"I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see."
- John Burroughs