I had been with my boyfriend for 10 months and had been going through a rocky patch recently with him not knowing what he wanted about anything in his life as he has had a lot going on (his head has been really messed up). Hes not being able to tell me he loved me. With a holiday already booked for 5th july we decided that we would still go and hope it would help us and he hoped it would help him fall back in love and clear his head. The holiday was going really well and i do feel that we were getting back on track and moving forward again, we got drunk on one of the first nights and after sex he told me he loved me. Then we got drunk two nights before coming home and i went and opened my mouth and asked him if he loved me which led to him saying he didnt know anything and made him think about everything all over again! I felt so stupid as i didnt want to talk about anything that had been happening :@. He then started saying 'You're a lovely girl and you mean so much to me' i got upset and ran off out the hotel room which scared the s**t out of him he ran after me and said we should go sleep cus he didnt know what he was saying, he cuddled me in his sleep so i wouldnt run off again. The next day we went to the waterpark and acted like nothing had happened as we didnt want the last day of the holiday ruined. We got home on Tuesday and on Weds night he told me he just wants to try and be friends as he thinks it will be better because he cares alot about me but just doesnt love me no more.
I really want to follow steps to get him back as we are good together and i have been reading up on things on the internet. I am broken but i have followed advice and not shown him this and i have not been begging him to take me back. The last thing i told him was that i agree with the break up which is what i was told to do. I feel like he just needs space untill he was cleared his head and that he is still confused as to what he wants.
I was never friends with him before we got together, we just jumped straight into a relationship. He said to me not long ago that he thinks we should have been friends first but i don't know why because we managed 10months without doing that? :S
I'm sorry about the lengthiness of this but i really do need help, i'm trying no contact but i keep thinking it will make him think i'm doing fine without him and instead of missing me he will just move on. can you tell me what to do next?