I'm an ugly man who's been trying to get friends for a while.
People to hang out with and eat with, see cool stuff, and maybe even go to parties. I've always liked the idea of parties and they sound really cool, I've never been to one.
Not in middle school, high school, college, or anything in between.
It's so hard being this ugly and trying to get friends. I can feel it everywhere I go. Walking down the street men stare, women don't even bother to look at me. Sometimes groups of them go by and I can hear them laughing about me once they get past.
Every weekend I'm alone and I spend that night walking around. Nobody's alone, they all have tons of friends with them, big groups of them. They're laughing and running around, it makes me so sad and so angry at the same time. I want so badly what they have but I've never had it before because nobody wants to help me with it.
I heard getting a girlfriend can sometimes help with getting hang out friends but women are out of the question. They're much repulsed by me than the men are, which is saying something.
I don't know what to do. I cry a lot and wish so hard I looked different, maybe even just average, that would be a blessing. I just want to have a normal life like everybody else but the world hates everything they see.
What do I do? Please help.
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I did try recently trying to hang out with some other friends I made.
I decided to take some advice I found her and initiate the first invite to them. We seemed to like similar things so I got their number and texted them from time to time.
I did some more research and found out people usually go out on the weekends between 11 PM - 1 AM so I text my new friends then.
I had 5 people.
They all said no.
Every weekend I would text them and every weekend they would give me an excuse. It was most likely fake.
They never sent an invite to anything they were doing after that. I waited and waited for them to maybe text maybe but none ever did.