Now I'm Hurt
I'm not going into the whole back story on my relationship. Been here for a while, and the regulars know the story. The ex and I have been broken up for probably close to 2 months. I started NC with her a few weeks ago, and she started texting me that it was really hurting her, and she really wanted to talk to me. So I thought about it, and I'm moving to a different state in two weeks, so I figured why not. I'll at least be friends with her until I leave. She was a special person to me, and why put myself through more stress before I leave.
I'll add that we went through a lot together in the short time we were together. We got arrested (drunk in public), and that was stressful, but I payed off the fines for both of us. That was over $500. I got her pregnant, and she had an abortion. I held her hand through the whole procedure, and supported her the best I could after wards. I was her shoulder to cry on for so many nights over so much drama. We practically lived together. She even wanted me to move in with her. It was like a one year relationships worth of ups and down compacted into a few months.
The very day I tell her that we can be friends, she invites me back to her place for the night. I made no moves on her at all, even though we slept in the same bed. I stayed on my side, and she stayed on hers. After a couple hours she slowly worked her way into my arms, and that's where she stayed all night. The next morning she crawled onto the couch with me, she wrapped my arms around her, and she held my hand. We ended up having sex.
This is where she manages to stab me in the heart one last time before I leave. I catch her on IM, and ask if we can see each other a few more times before I leave for NY. It's the last time she'll ever see me again. She liked the idea, and said absolutely. I get off of IM with her, and I look at a calendar. Oops! Looks like I'll need a place to stay for a few days before I head out of state, so I ask if I can stay with her. She says "we will see". Wtf? We practically lived together for months, and we've been through so much together. Plus we seemed to be on more than friendly terms right now. So I guess I was expecting a more enthusiastic response than that.
So I told her that if she has something else going on, and it would be weird having me around for a few days, I'd understand. I was basically saying if she's seeing someone, I would understand. She comes back with "I dunno. We'll see". She didn't answer my question one way or the other, and again basically gave me the cold shoulder on a place to stay for a few days.
I really can't believe that sh!t. I really can't. After all we've been through together, after all I've done for her.. f*ck her. Really.. f*ck her.
Last edited by shheadz; 25-01-10 at 03:46 PM.
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