OK... I was in a pretty crappy situation a few months ago.. Almost to the point where i died. I did it to myself. Now, pick up the book "The four agreements." I have been pushing this book for a while now and everyone i have recommended it too has liked it. It is very easy to read and WILL transform the way you are thinking and WILL help you. It did for me and almost instantly. Good luck
The issues, problems, and emotions are created by your mind. The only thing that will save you from yourself is yourself. You need to change the way you think and act. You control your mind NOT the other way around.
and no i didnt write the book.. i wish i had lol