Long story, if you don't want to read it all just skip to girl 2
Girl 1: Lily
I moved to New Orleans a little before 9th grade started. I
didn’t know anyone at my new school, but I met a few guys
who I got along with quickly. I didn’t really know where to
sit at lunch for the first few weeks, but I saw one of the
guys I met one day and decided to start sitting with him. A
few other people I didn’t know started sitting there, and
one of them was this girl named Lily. It turned out I had
like 4 classes with Lily but I didn’t really notice until
then. Anyway, for the next 7 months or so I sat there
everyday, and I gradually got to be good friends with Lily.
By May of my freshman year, I was pretty good friends with
her, we talked a lot, and felt comfortable around her. Some
random person told me that me and her would make a good
couple, and I just denied it. But deep down I felt my heart
skip when I heard the person tell me this. But I just
repressed any thoughts of liking her. One day, she was
giving a speech in history class, and then all of a sudden
out of nowhere I started to really like her, like a dam of
my repressed affection for her had suddenly broke loose.
There was a three day weekend after that, and over that
weekend I became obsessed with her out of nowhere. She was
all I could think about, I would just lie in bed and think
about her. I couldn’t eat or anything. I decided I needed to
share my feelings, and I didn’t know how, so I wrote a love
letter that told her how much I liked her, and stuff like
“when I see you coming my heart skips a beat” But I never
actually asked her out in this letter
So I gave her this letter after school, and then she
kind of just walked away and I didn’t see her again that
day. The next day she completely ignored me, but there was
this awkwardness between us. That awkwardness continued for
the next two weeks, she never mentioned the letter I gave
her, but she had stopped talking to me and didn’t really
regard me anymore. This other guy named Peter had started
coming to our lunch table, and he would be mean to her and
steal her food and stuff, and one day he put his shoes on
her lap, and she tried to get him to take them off but he
wouldn’t. I started to take his shoes off, but then he
threatened to kill me. He was so mean to her, it was like he
didn’t care about her at all. After two weeks of awkwardness
between us, I just asked her out because I wanted closure on
how she felt. She said no. The next day, I heard that Peter
had asked her out, and she said yes. It didn’t make any
sense to me, because Peter was so mean to her and I was so
nice. School ended for summer shortly after that. During the
summer, I thought about her all the time, and fantasized
about her. I decided that maybe she changed her mind about
me over the summer, and decided that during the next school
year I was going to try to “win her over”
So the next school year started, and she pretended
like the whole letter incident never happened. We were like
friends again pretty much. Her birthday was the second week
of school, and I brought her a bunch of candy I knew she
liked. She didn’t really respond to me much that day. Her
and Peter had broken up over the summer, so I thought that
he wasn’t a problem anymore. A week after her birthday, I
asked her out on a date, but she told me her dad wouldn’t
let her go. I tried again a week later, but it didn’t work
either. Eventually she just flat out told me that she didn’t
like me. I said we could still be friends though, so we
tried to be “friends” but the entire time I still really
liked her and she still pretty much ignored me. There was
this other guy named Lucas who was friends with her, and
they seemed to be getting closer and closer. Eventually I
found out she and Lucas had started dating, but neither of
them had told me. She went on vacation, and brought back a
bunch of souvenirs, and gave one to Lucas, and some to other
people, but none to me. She completely ignored me. I felt
disgusted, because I knew that there was no way that Lucas
cared about her anywhere near as much as I did. To make
matters worse, Lucas told me that he didn’t even like Lily,
and he was just dating her because her friends wanted him
to. This made me very angry, and I told Lily this, but she
just ignored me. I then told her that I loved her, but she
ignored that too. I felt really bad and stopped eating lunch
with her. She felt sorry for me, so she made me this
bracelet with my favorite colors, but after she gave it to
me she just continued to ignore me. Lucas broke up with her
shortly afterward, and I felt like this was my opportunity
to get her. Shortly after Lucas broke up with her, I went to
Mexico with my family. When I was there, I found a piece of
bamboo, and sawed it and smoothed it out into a smaller
shape, then carved her name into it. It was a lot of work. I
gave it to her when I got back. She didn’t really show me
any attention when I gave it to her, but later I asked her
if she liked it and she said she liked it a lot. But still,
she didn’t like me and just totally ignored me pretty much.
I kind broke down, and one day at lunch I just told her my
feelings and that I couldn’t deal with this anymore. I
pretty much confessed my feelings in front of like 8 other
people, I was so distraught. She didn’t have anything to
say, she just said that she needed to finish her lunch, so I
felt messed up and I just left. Christmas break came up, and
during Christmas break we got into a texting argument, and
she said that she would never like me and I told her that I
couldn’t talk to her anymore because it hurt me too much. I
had been friends with her ex, Lucas, the entire time up to
this point. I started to hate him because I was jealous that
she liked him instead of me, and eventually we stopped being
friends and I started to hate him. I told myself that it
wasn’t because of Lily, but because he spread rumors about
me that I stopped being his friend, but deep down it was
because of Lily.
So I didn’t talk to her for the rest of the school
year really. During the spring, I met this girl named Petra,
and we had a lot in common, and we started talking a lot,
but I wasn’t really over Lily and didn’t make a move on
Petra. Petra just suddenly stopped talking to me, and I
didn’t really think much about it. At the end of the school
year, I decided to talk to Lily again after months of
silence. She had been friends with that Lucas guy the entire
time, but I tried to let that not bother me. Over the
summer, Lily and I would talk to each other for hours every
day. Originally she told me she had a boyfriend, but then
later told me she made it up and she was actually single. I
didn’t let that bother me. I could tell that she liked me,
we would talk so much. I asked one of my friends to ask her
if she liked me, but she told him that she couldn’t date me
even though she liked me because I was not friends with
Lucas anymore. This made me very angry, because it made no
sense. I felt that it shouldn’t matter whether or not I was
friends with Lucas, but she refused to date me. I didn’t
talk to her for about a month after this.
Then we started talking again, and I still felt that
she liked me. Eventually I confessed that I still had
feelings for her, that I loved her, that I would die for
her, and I told her that I could work it out with Lucas. I
honestly would have died for her. Nothing in the world was
as important to me as she was. Literally. She felt bad for
me, and told me that we could start dating after her
birthday, which was just like two weeks away. When her
birthday came along, which was just after the beginning of
11th grade, I asked her about it and she backed out. She
said she couldn’t make a decision about it until later, and
pretty much just blew me off and ignored me. I told her I
felt that she was ignoring me, and that she didn’t care
about me, and she got angry at me. I told her that I was
angry that she cared so much more about Lucas than me, and
she asked if I had ever had violent thoughts about Lucas. I
promised her I would never lie to her, so I told her yes,
that I had, and she simply stated that she refused to talk
to me if I thought violently about her friends, and we just
stopped talking after that. It had been such a long ordeal,
this happened 17 months after I had originally given her
that love letter. I have only said a few words to her since.