So hi everybody! I'm new this forum, but I've just felt like I've hit a wall and don't really have anyone to talk to. I'm 22 years old and I was 19 meet my boyfriend. We had a rocky relationship, but what can I say? I was in love with him. He made me feel special and I trusted him completely. But his mother was a nightmare. She had me tears several times and towards the end of our relationship, he just stopped trying to help smooth things over and told me just "deal with it". She was very antagonizing and plan out bat sh** crazy. (his words not mine). Back in June, I was in an accident that almost killed me. She wouldn't let medical help, fire department, or sheriff department in the check on me. She kept sending them away. She waited 3 hours to come get me then I still waited another 2 hours before the fire department flat out told her that they needed to come get me and she need to quit playing games. Then she showed up at the hospital demanding money for my horses two days after my accident (I paid for everything for them and had offered to pay rent for them MANY times). She was down right nasty to my mother and threw hugs fits every time my BF wanted to see me-even after I recovered. Until she got caught taking money from my mom and she snapped and suddenly my BF flipped out on me and I was the controlling and crazy one. Needless to say we broke up and I found out he abused my horse several times. I'm happy to be free of both them, but I found I've just shut down when it comes to relationship. Sex is 100% not happening-I still have scars and nightmares from my accident and I can't stand someone touching me. I have a great time out with friends and enjoying flirting with guys at the bar, but I can't seem to get past it. I did met one guy who I felt that click with, but he is an relationship. I just feel like I've shut down when it comes to dating. I can't stand to be touched and the thought of being in a relationship makes me want to vomit. This shut down- I hate it. I want to feel like ME again. Happy to take a chance and go on that date, see where its going-but I just don't trust anymore. I miss the old me