I could use your perspective and ideas on a matter.
I have a guy I've been friends with for a long time. This year we've been hanging out much more and about 2 months ago we kissed. That kind of opened our eyes to the attraction we didn't know we had (when I told some of my friends about it, they actually said that it was a bit visible to them). Of course we knew it was very wrong since he has a long term gf, and after the next day we acted as nothing happened, even though we both felt it. We still acted as friends with the difference that we hung out as much better ones, like going for long lunches, long midnight walks with the purpose of photographing and talked a lot more.
I suppose it was bound to happen that we kissed again few times until we approached the question "what is going on and why?". Now don't get me wrong, I felt guilty as hell and so did he, but it was like impossible to stay away. We tried to find a solution to it but he didn't know what to do. Since he couldn't make a decision I told him I can't see him that often. Since we have mutual friends we did meet quite a lot. Nothing happened but we could feel it and see it from each other's eyes.
After 2 months he still hadn't told his gf and he hadn't decided, so I actually started to think he's an asshole and did it on purpose. He had told me that he didn't see any future with his gf anymore and had a rough time. That's why I thought he had been just playing with me. He also couldn't give me ANY adequate answers besides "I don't know", so I told him that if he also doesn't have anything to explain to me after 2 days then I never want to hear anything from him. He actually called me after 2 days and said nothing was done on purpose. He said that he's confused about what we have but he's never felt that and always thought that it is extremely easy to say no to others when you're in a relationship. I also suggested that it could have been anybody besides me but he strongly disagreed. He said that maybe the reason he couldn't decide was that he might still love his gf but he's not sure. But he wants to try to see if his relationship could get better.
Now, I think he's doing the right thing trying to fix what is left, if I leave my feelings out of it. But I'm wondering if it is possible for us to continue our friendship with buried feelings? Especially if we are going for a 10-day trip with our friends (without his gf) and have to be so close all the time?
How easy can it be for him to suppress his feelings? And could he actually fix things with her even though he has that secret from her..?