Originally Posted by
jane90
hi everybody
i have four children and married since 15 yrs.....since last 3 yrs i do not like my husband the way I liked him. We have had a lot of verbal fighting since then...but in the end i realized it was my fault.
I do not like his talking, his advices, his coming to me for sex and u name it . There are many times when he really realized and I am being afraid that he would leave me i pretend to be nice to him and then for a while everything is ok. To pretend that I still like him , I went to that extent that now i have 8 months baby boy. But this is not post delivery depression. It is as I said long time before pregnancy. Believe me he is a good guy and take care of me and my children. I do not like most of him but I do not want to lose him. I love him too much and i feel panic when I think he would leave me. I do not know what it is. Love or selfishness but i want to change for him. To be same good as early years and start to like his things as I did in early years.
Please if somebody can help. Give me anything....any comments ....tell me I am mad or crazy..may be it will help me and I change myself before it is too late. i am desperate.