Hi thanks for taking the time to read my post.
So back in September I met this girl. We went out a couple of times there was an instant connection. A complete rarity in the dating world. I was pretty fresh out of a previous relationship and let that horrid experience cloud my judgement. I foolishly backed away. I felt I wasn't ready to jump into another relationship. About a month after I try to reconnect with her but she's still mad at me and blows me off. So I went on a brake from dating for another month. I jumped back in the game and in December I developed a pure "hook up" or "friends with benefits" with a different girl. This lasted for about 5 months or so. So recently I have reconnected with this girl I met in September. I often thought about her especially after another mediocre date. So we went out for the first time since meeting in September. There it was that connection! It was still there mutual with both of us. So we have been chatting and what not laying a foundation for a relationship. During our chat last night she asked me about the time in between September and now. So I told her about this fling. I instantly became the bad guy. She claims that she feels like now she's my second choice. She wasn't good enough the first time. That I really hurt her the first time. I explained to her that I'm not luring her into a trap and i don't want to hurt her. I didn't want to hurt her the first time. Today she's completely ignoring me. I have only tried to contact her once. I'm not going to smother her in attempts to invoke a response. I'm giving her space. But how should I proceed? Should I proceed? I value all your thoughts on this thanks.