A Books store to go to with unbalanced feeling...
B) Today is going to be a tricky day for me.
If anyone read any of my posts, then you may know that over a month ago I broke up with that special, and pretty much I was nervous about going to my friend's wedding where she would be. Details on that wedding I'll post up later when I get to my office... what happened there wasn't bad at all, but disappointed and hurt I was...
SO MOVING ON... something I've been trying to do, believed I was but now understood I had not fully because I loved someone too much.
Today I plan to go to this bookstore, where this slightly interesting lady came up to me and talked to me a few weeks back because I maintained the right amount of eye contact with her. She works there so it should not be hard to find her and I think she should be around the right age for me.
That time I was with my sister and others, so when they decided to leave and dragged me out, I didn't get a chance to get her number, plus I was still down after my ex had messaged me (after the break up) and ended a life long friendship.
Now I'm trying to get my mind focused for today to see if I can ask this lady out. Or go after her number.
Some how though I am feeling less confident that I can do this. I fear my anxiety will come back (which is something I got over a few years ago) because I felt that anxiety back at the wedding when the dancing started. Even now I kind of feel like I could appear not relaxed.
I'm telling myself since yesterday that I'm going to do this and I'm not going to mess this up but it doesn't seem to be working.
I think I need that pat on the back like my ex used to give me for going through with something like this.
There's no chance even with speaking with my ex ever again, so I really want to go through with starting up communications with this lady at the bookstore.
Does anyone think I'm going through with the right idea or am I really still unbalanced dangerously?
I do know a lot of decision making has been very bad in the past many weeks.
I am relaxed in somewhat of a way but any reminding tips don't hurt and are appreciated.
-Any replies by me are purely my opinion and based on my experiences and inexperienced actions meaning some things I say are right and some are wrong. If it sounds like it, I am not giving a solution or answer to the problem. This is why I am not supposed to post on forums I read only from.
M.E.
Kashan
Rider Viper
My Sister Says: "You're moving on pretty fast."
I say: "Would you prefer if I sit in a corner all day?"