Hi there,
I'm after some advice. Please bear with me whilst I try and explain.
I'm 28 and decided to try online dating back in September. I got talking to a few guys. Two really got my attention, whom I decided to arrange dates with. The problem is, it's five months on, and I'm still dating both of these guy, which I know is totally unfair, but it was a situation that could have been avoided. Now, I know I need to decide and commit to one, however both have amazing qualities and as mad as it sounds, I'm crazy about both. Let me try and give a run down. Neither of these guys know about each other.
Guy one - He is HIV positive, however, I do love this guy, and he has now told me he feels the same (yes, if I did really love him, I wouldn't be dating another guy). The fact he is HIV + isn't a deciding factor for me at all. He's an amazing guy, really down to earth and I do find him attractive. He has met a few of my friends, and they have said he seem's like a great guy. This is the guy I've spent alot of time with, staying over at mine, and his, and doing things together. This guy has just been made redundant from his job, however, he is lucky enough to have savings to support himself, and have a life too. He is a typical guy, and not very fourth coming with his feelings.
Guy two - casual dating. We haven't done anything apart from kiss and snuggle up. I'm stupidly attracted to him and we do have a laugh. I'm staying over at his next week, and now the guilt is kicking in. He has a career, and so many quirky things that I find attractive, he has. We email none stop, and is very open with his feelings and very touchy feely (which is what I like).
I'm not expecting anyone to give me the answer, only I can do that. However, if someone can give me another way to think about things, it would be appreciated. I know I shouldn't have let things go on this long, and I'm not sure why. Yes, the guilt is kicking in now. I know I've been selfish.
It's typical, I've been single for 6 years, and had bad luck with men, it's just typical I meet two guys at the same time, that float my boat for total different reasons at the same time.