Here's the short story. I've been dating this guy for two and a half years. We broke up in the past a couple of times, mostly because I got tired of the relationship- I had a longer one before we started dating, and this guy is the reason why I broke up with previous guy in the first place. Anyways, I'm pretty sure this one is the love of my life. Let's call him Joe. Joe loves me as much as I love him, of that Im sure, but I think he got tired of us fighting all the time, as well. We are currently no longer together, it's been almost a month and a half now. Our longest break up lasted 2 months and we were seeing other people at that time. He lied to me more than once, but I think it was mostly because he was afraid that I would leave him for good if he told me the truth, and I know he was angry at the time because I had been dating this other guy for a few weeks. I lied to him a couple of times, to be honest. Writing this makes me realise how complicated things are between us. He also proposed to me last year, and I accepted. It wasnt a "formal" engagement, it was more of a thing to prove ourselves and others that we really do love each other and arent ready to give up. In the past I was the one who got to say when it's over and when we can make up, but now the tables are turned. Now he's the one that plays "hard to get" and is kinda avoiding me, and stuff like that. I understand him, I did this to him before, now he's sick and tired and decided to man up a little bit and take things into his own hands. Besides these "few" times when we ****ed up, mostly because we are still young-only 21, we had a really great relationship. My parents love him and his parents adore me. We are both med students, we get along perfectly when it's just us. But it's all that build up anger and resentment that keeps us from moving to another stage in our relationship. Anyways, he's out of the country for a week, and it made me realise that I cant live without him and that I dont really want to. So, here's the thing (sorry for the long post, but you see it's complicated): I wanted to have a conversation with his older brother, that's a good friend of mine, to see how he feels about us, he knows everything that happened, and Im sure he knows how Joe feels right now. I wanted to ask for advice, but Im not sure if that is going to make me look pathetic. I dont want to give up, I know this sounds like the worst love story ever, but Im sure some of you know that feeling in your gut when you just know you shouldnt give up just yet, I feel like he's the greatest love of my life, we just need to grow up and start thinking straight. So please, help, tell me what to do? Should I fight for us, or give up and accept that it really is over? Sorry again for the long post and thanks for your time