Hi, as some of you might know from my previous post, i'm in a relationship with a girl i'm in love with, but she is fully controlled by her parents. to a point that makes thing unbearable for me. other than this, she has issues of keeping things to herself and creating this big wall around her and won't let anyone in. we barely get to talk and see each other. whenever we do see each other, it's all stressed out because she has to be home soon, or we are worried she gets caught. we are both 27 by the way, which makes all these alot more difficult because she shouldn't be like this at this age.
she is amazing and i have strong feelings for her. but these things she does on top of the limitations we have has made me feel very lonely and sad. she all of a suddent doesn't call me for a whole full day and doesn't answer my calls or txt msgs. then she harshly says to me that 'if i don't have time i won't call you, or if i don't want to talk to you, i won't.. " which i understand, but she is just random. everything is fine between us and all of a sudden i'm being ignored. she keeps busy in her life and all i have to do is worry to see when she calls and when she has time so i can see her. all my schedule revolves around hers all the time. so it's painful to sit and see when she decides to call. and i fi miss her call, then it's another three hours, cuz she won't be able to pick up.
am i crazy? or is this unhealthy? am i expecting too much? what am i doing wrong? to me, she seems unstable.. moody about our relationship.. she tells me she doesn't like it when i keep in touch too much. so i let her be, but at the same time, she is so jumpy all the time that i might lose her for good. she comes all of a sudden and says she is leaving town for a whole month for a vacation with her brother! she is this random. please help. she is absolutely amazing when i'm with her. she stuns me and leaves me speechless and has many good qualities that i am not mentioning here, that are making me want to be with her. please tell me what to do.
i'm tired of having to match my timing with her all the time while she, everyday, goes through her usual schedule. i take time off work to see her, i take time off school to be with her.. i ALWAYS drive to be with her.. i know, i'm doing too much, but i will never get to see her if i don't do these.. help!