my feeling scare me! Please help

[i.am.lamp]

I am crazy about this male friend and ive never been scared of my feelings toward someone before! Im scared cos i would kill myself LITERALY if sumthing happened to him more then a family member which is WRONG!i wuld rather die then have to face sumthing bad happen to him! What am i going threw??? all i think about is what if sumthing terrible happens to him! eg. a car crash! i feel sick thinking about it

ive felt this for 3 years but it keeps getting worse! Sum1 please help me i cant go on like this im freaking out ! !

What advice can i take??? Thnx

I should add that my family disaproves of him for religious reasons cos they are very religious. Its hard to cope!

[bcgirl]

Go to a psychologist

[Marlee]

It's good to be scared, life can be cruel when you least expect it to be. Basically, if you lost a parent your connection with him would keep you going but if you lost him you would live on in darkness? If yes, that's rare. Tell him how you feel.

[Marlee]

What's stopping you from telling him how you feel?

[i.am.lamp]

For one im scared he will think im clingy! I dont know how to tell him. What if he declines me? He has told me 2 years ago that he loves me and always will love me! I dont know if his feelings have chnged for the worst, he is a close friend. Ive always felt soulmate weird around him. Yesterday we went out to a movie and his arm brushed against mine and i nearly died.