Hey guys, FunkySkunk here, new member
Yep, having a bit of a tough time enjoying life when I have almost no reason to not be. I can't say I'm fully blown depressed but I am not feeling my best. I'm 20 years old right now, turning 21 relatively soon. Went Backpacking solo, just to adventure and experience something new at the beginning of the year. Now I'm back at home, going to a good school, DJing on my free time, I'm not working but still trying to look for work. Asides from my life being a bit slow at the moment, I can't seem to dissect and figure out whats bringing/slowing me down and killing my motivation.. making me feel tired/numb all the time etc.
AKA : Life = Boring as all Hell
I'm confident, I've been told that I have a charismatic charm, I'm a good looking guy . I have a bit of an ego but I'm trying to change it, it has killed some relationships between my friends and it starting to work it's way towards my closest friends.
I'm usually bright and outspoken, but recently as my friends would describe me as being "off" and on "edge" a lot of the time. I think this is all because of me being single my whole life. I've never experienced the whole relationship thing, and I'm guessing it's something that's lacking in my life. I have had "encounters" and "close relationships" with other women in my life but I always seem to destroy it one way or another. I'm not socially awkward, a bit weird but who isn't?
I just don't know why I can't get a girlfriend...starting to feel somewhat lonely.
Someone talk to me.