Hi All,
I am new here and looking for advice. I have been married for 13 years to a man that has not always been to good to me. I have stayed in the relationship for the kids and have always been very faithful even though I haven't always been happy. He on the other hand, has cheated on me numerous times, and I always have taken him back. There is no passion between us, it is just comfortable so we stay together. We love each other, but I not sure we are in love anymore?
I have always kicked my self in the butt for not pursing a relationship with my best (guy) friend in High School. We were always together, the best of friends and really close, but when he told me he "liked" me, I was too afraid that if it didn't work out I would loose him as a friend, and I wasn't about to let that happen, he meant the world to me. He went on to get married to a girl that didn't understand we were just friends, and we weren't allowed to hang out and be friends anymore. I really missed him over the years, but there wasn't much I could do about it.
His wife died suddenly about 8 months ago, and we have since started hanging out a little bit. I think he is starting to be ready to move on with his life, as he seems to be getting pretty close to one of our old friends who is going through a divorce. I want so badly to be with him, but I don't want him to think cheating on my husband is something I normally do. In fact I wouldn't cheat, I would tell my husband first I wanted out of the marriage. I seriously think I would give up my marriage to be with him, but he is too nice to ever let me know if he was interested in me, even if he was, as I am married. I feel like if I do have a chance to finally be with him, I don't want to miss that chance again, because once he is commited (sp) to someone else, that will be it.
How in the world do I find out if he possibly feels the same way without looking like a major jerk and possibly loosing him as a friend? I knew I missed him over the years, but didn't realize just how much until we started hanging out again. Sorry this is so long, but your advice would be very much appreciated.